That’s me creeping very cautiously from within the deep dark woods of cooked food addiction. I got lost in there. I left a trail of breadcrumbs to find my way back, but I gobbled them all up in a feeding frenzy!
I sit before you now, naked. That is more than raw. I haven’t even been able to come to this place and write to you because I’ve been that lost. I mentioned the birthday pizza on my last post. I have only recently returned to my senses. You see, for me, it’s been all or nothing. I am not committed to that being my reality, but I have yet to break free from that pattern. I don’t necessarily feel that being 100% raw is the end-all way to be. I don’t think it’s necessarily the very BEST way to eat for ALL people. It might be, but that’s not for me to say. What I do know is that cooked foods are so dangerous for me because they send me into an uncontrollable downward spiral of addiction (namely sugar) that literally RULES my every thought. It takes a lot for me to find my way back. And it’s painful. Yes, real physical pain. I suffer withdrawals that would make you wonder if I’m not addicted to something a little more hardcore than just sugar. We think of refined sugar as innocent and, well, sweet! It’s poison, dear friends! Don’t be fooled. I am here to attest to that and stand by that statement forever. It’s in everything we eat in this culture. And whaddya know? Look at the raging statistics for diabetes, just to name one.
Anyway, I’m explaining to you in a ranting sort of way why I haven’t been around for a while and what happened.
I sit here now with a very severely injured knee, for which I am determined to heal naturally with green juices and green smoothies. I know I can do this. Here’s a fact: Every single time I eat refined sugar, as well as some other “good” sugars, such as agave, honey, dates, I get BAD burning joint pain in my right shoulder, which had a rotator cuff tear about 10 years ago. What does this say?It’s not a coincidence. This is true. Now, rereading my earlier posts, I sounded quite wise talking about listening to and honoring my body. I’m going to take that advice again now.
I know I can heal my knee. I have to. I know I can heal my body and my addictions. I have to.
Please include me in your prayers and visualizations for optimal health.
Blessings on your path,
Shawna