Nothing sounds good to me. I ate a lot of fruit, but half-heartedly. Major gas. I wonder if I’ve been eating too much raw cacao lately; hmmm…..
I have a lot of sadness in me today. I’m grieving over my father’s cancer and multiple sclerosis. My sadness is big, and I don’t have a place for it. I’m not sure where to place it in me. I am thinking about creating an actual vessel out of natural materials to symbolically hold my grief. I know many of you out there have been touched by cancer. This is by far my closest brush with it. My poor dad is weak and tired. It’s all so new, and he’s still undergoing tests to determine the extent. His brother was diagnosed with prostate and lung cancer just weeks before! Again, where does the heart store this pain and worry?
I have a dear friend who facilitates Hellinger Constellation work. It deals with clearing familial energy, in a nutshell. I am going to be having a constellation done in the beginning of August. I believe this will assist me in the process of healing my heart.
I don’t mean to be a downer, but this is real. This is me right now. I am staying present with my feelings so I don’t shove them deep into my cells and organs. I have tears threatening to spray out my eyes every moment, but I haven’t let those flood gates open. Contradictory to what I just said about shoving, but, again, it’s fresh, scary, overwhelming. My husband is a great support, but he doesn’t know what to do either.
Thanks for listening. I welcome your support.
Oh and I ate:
5 peaches
3 bananas
1 apple
handful kale chips
1/2 cup cacao-cherry ice cream (banana base)
one cacao nut ball
May your rest be peaceful tonight,
Shawna
Hugs and support to you from Klamath Falls, Oregon.